Seen...I had a similar moment tonight with not giving 2 capers when the agreement was to finish the mash first. Meltdown mayhem. She was overtired and overstimulated. The one time I gave the longest screen time in a day 1 hr 20 mins) due to a meeting and i should have known. Well I did but I chose to give it a go..live and learn on my part. Ahelia said as she sobbed “it’s so hard being a child”. I get it. It is. It’s hard being a human but so beautiful in all it’s challenges. I had a glimpse of what the teenage years would look like. A wise woman said to me, the way you respond and treat them in the toddler and preschool years will set them up for how it will be during the teen years. Sometimes I get it right and other times when I lose it, I think of those words. Lots of repair on my end. I thought I was patient but boy, I had no idea how thin it is.
Appreciate your beautiful writing as always. Loved reading this as I enjoyed my hot chocolate x
I think part of what makes it hard (especially when you have a toddler screaming at you) is that I worry so much about future Freddie. How my actions may or may not effect him and shape him as an adult. It's the weight of that kind of responsibility that is heaviest.
Yes! So much yes!! Those rare times when I yell (and I thought I didn’t have it in me) and I see her scared and I feel sick. Wondering if this will be something that she will hold on to and remember. Wanting to break cycles but questioning if I continued it. It’s heavy.
Seen...I had a similar moment tonight with not giving 2 capers when the agreement was to finish the mash first. Meltdown mayhem. She was overtired and overstimulated. The one time I gave the longest screen time in a day 1 hr 20 mins) due to a meeting and i should have known. Well I did but I chose to give it a go..live and learn on my part. Ahelia said as she sobbed “it’s so hard being a child”. I get it. It is. It’s hard being a human but so beautiful in all it’s challenges. I had a glimpse of what the teenage years would look like. A wise woman said to me, the way you respond and treat them in the toddler and preschool years will set them up for how it will be during the teen years. Sometimes I get it right and other times when I lose it, I think of those words. Lots of repair on my end. I thought I was patient but boy, I had no idea how thin it is.
Appreciate your beautiful writing as always. Loved reading this as I enjoyed my hot chocolate x
I think part of what makes it hard (especially when you have a toddler screaming at you) is that I worry so much about future Freddie. How my actions may or may not effect him and shape him as an adult. It's the weight of that kind of responsibility that is heaviest.
Yes! So much yes!! Those rare times when I yell (and I thought I didn’t have it in me) and I see her scared and I feel sick. Wondering if this will be something that she will hold on to and remember. Wanting to break cycles but questioning if I continued it. It’s heavy.
Makes it hard to just be in the moment and take a tantrum for what it is rather than worrying about the future. Always learning x